hurt

without you..... i really lost its way. i don't know what to do anymore.

i feel my life was chaotic, absurd, is not clear now...

im nothing without you.. 
 but maybe now you already don't care anymore with me and my life,right?

you're too perfect for me and you're the best thing i ever had,

but I felt it didn't deserve you.i can't be perfect as you want.i can't make you happy when you beside me  and maybe I had too much to hurt you :'(

I can not say anything anymore..

maybe you better get someone who deserves much better than me.

although deep in my heart, I don't want to and not willing to see you with another girl.

but I'm trying to be happy if you could be happy and smile even though I'm here...really hurt.

I feel shortness of breath when writing all of this 

I really can not afford to write it all. its really hurts :'(