Sometimes it's easier for me to pretend rather than to face my feelings. Sometimes it's easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. Sometimes it's easier to be numb towards certain people so I don't let them get too close. Sometimes I'm scared, but when I act numb towards you, it doesn't mean I don't care. It means I care too much. But it's almost like you had it planned, you smiled at me and introduced yourself and said the right words at the right time, when really you should have said "I'm about to screw you over."